That feeling of being lost, & not being able to have any concrete/stable feelings. I am almost never sure of what I want or how I feel. And I can’t remember the last time that I simply just felt one specific thing over another. Instead, am always happy & anxious, relaxed yet worried, nice but very mean too. i feel love but it sure is accompanied with hate, I feel safe yet always afraid; I know what I want but I just don’t really know at the same time. The thing is, these conflicting feelings happen together, simultaneously one state pulling its extreme opposite, welcome to my mind.